Since You've Been Gone

Its been almost 5 months ever since all the heartache started. But why is it that the pain is still here? Why is it just so hard to forget him? -- Recently, we had a very short meet up which made me break down. Then when I went down his car and turned around I couldn't help but cry. Why? Its because I saw the person I really love so much was in front me, but I couldn't do anything. He'll never know how much he means to me, He'll never know how much I love him. "It's hard to wait for something you know might never happen but it's harder to give up when you know its everything you want." I cried almost every single day in 2012, spent almost all my 11:11 wishes for him and I never fail to pray for him. This is how much I love him. But I guess its better that we are like this for a while. I really love AGHNF  but until then, I won't stop hoping.