last night...

FTW. You ONLY care for me now. Seriously?! why are you forcing yourself not to love me any more? B I could only take so much. If you're going to be like this might as well break up. You think its easy don't you? You think its easy to put up a smile every time you text? You think its easy for me to see you just walk away like this. Stupid damn promises ended up getting broken after all. You told me you can't hurt me, but what are you doing now? I get it you just wanna get back on me for what I did in the past. But it doesn't have to be like this. We're both struggling to be best friends, can't you see that? I guess you're happy now that you're free. You can now live the life you want to have. Most of all you're happy because you can see me suffering. I'm doing my best to stay strong for us. Go have fun in your life now, while I'll live a life without you in it too. After what you did, all the sorry's you told meant nothing. I'm afraid to lose you but I know slipping from my arms now. Don't blame me   if by the time you'll ask me to be with you I might say no. B I just want you back cant you see? DAMN. I STILL LOVE YOU with all of that said. I know that this blog won't change anything but I just want you to know how much you mean to me. I just want you to know how much I love you. Hopefully this will end soon. I won't stop hoping.