Oh crazy life

He changed. He wasn't the guy I loved for the last 9 months and 7 days. I wish he was the same again.I guess he's happy now I'm shattering into pieces.I won't stop praying he'll be his normal self again. I MISS HIM SO MUCH.I hope he opens his heart and realize how much it hurts."It's hard to love again when the only way it's been,when the only love you knew JUST WALKED AWAY.I wish I could have a friend to talk to about this.I have no one to vent to at the moment. Oh well, I have to stay positive even if I'm dying inside.I have to prove him I could change, I have to prove my love for him.He's given up on me.One thing he told me he will never do at the start of our relationship. Since we are now best friends, we are restricted to say I love you to each other. So this is where I will say my I love you's first. I don't how I can deal with this in the long run.I won't stop hoping though.