last night...

FTW. You ONLY care for me now. Seriously?! why are you forcing yourself not to love me any more? B I could only take so much. If you're going to be like this might as well break up. You think its easy don't you? You think its easy to put up a smile every time you text? You think its easy for me to see you just walk away like this. Stupid damn promises ended up getting broken after all. You told me you can't hurt me, but what are you doing now? I get it you just wanna get back on me for what I did in the past. But it doesn't have to be like this. We're both struggling to be best friends, can't you see that? I guess you're happy now that you're free. You can now live the life you want to have. Most of all you're happy because you can see me suffering. I'm doing my best to stay strong for us. Go have fun in your life now, while I'll live a life without you in it too. After what you did, all the sorry's you told meant nothing. I'm afraid to lose you but I know slipping from my arms now. Don't blame me   if by the time you'll ask me to be with you I might say no. B I just want you back cant you see? DAMN. I STILL LOVE YOU with all of that said. I know that this blog won't change anything but I just want you to know how much you mean to me. I just want you to know how much I love you. Hopefully this will end soon. I won't stop hoping.

I miss you :(

damn nothing is ever gonna be the same anymore. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I want to remind you that everyday but I can't. I couldn't even tell you how I feel through text. You don't need me in you're life any more I guess. I'm not sure if I'll be okay or available by the time you want me back. Why are you doing this? DAMN why? Are you that blind? Am I that bad for you to this to me? You say I can grow up from this experience, but why can't you believe that I can do it while I'm with you? B if YOU GAVE ME A CHANCE this wouldn't have happened. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU. Good night babe, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. sweet dreams :*. *sigh* I won't stop hoping.

The EFF.

I guess I shouldn't expect that much anymore. I guess I'll be crying myself to sleep more often. I love you. I just don't know how he could do this. I wish he was the same guy I met 2 years ago. It hurts to the bone. Every song reminds me of the thing we had. I miss him so much. But until he stays manhid, I guess I won't stop hoping.

hiii

It's been like hours now since we last talked. I wanna disturb you but I'm forcing myself not to. A best friend should know what is right. Even if I have to wait up to 11 pm just to talk to you I would. B if ever you are able to read this, nothing in this blog is talkshit. Its the truth. Kahit ganyan ka kagago, I won't stop hoping.

I want you back.

CALL ME STUPID but I'm willing to do everything just to get you back. B can't you see what this cool off is making us do? you're slashing yourself and I'm eating chocolate. why can't you see it? why can't you see i miss you? why can't you see i love you? WHY CAN'T YOU SEE I WANT YOU BACK? Your putting me up with all this sht but we both know we can't take this. BUT WHY?  I love you. You know that as a fact. I could give you my life for pete's sake.But for now I guess I wont stop hoping.

kiss me slowly

I'm not sure yet if I'm ready to show this blog to him. I'm scared of the reaction I might get. He might laugh at me and call me stupid for making this. But this is the only place where I could tell everything I feel without anybody telling me how a jerk my boyfriend is. I still love him so much, if I had the chance to kiss him I would take it. Its to late now all I can do is pray. I wont stop hoping babe.

I know we cant say anything...

I LOVE YOU B SO MUCH FOREVER AND EVER. -T // its sad how this is the only place i could tell him I love him. // YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING, DON'T YOU FORGET THAT. // I'm still in complete shock on what he did. I won't stop hoping.

I love you babe.

It's kinda awkward now when we talk. It isn't the same. I m slowly dying. I can't wait to talk to my batch's guidance councilor. I wish everything was back to normal. Cause I can't take this for next few months. I won't stop hoping for a miracle.

Oh crazy life

He changed. He wasn't the guy I loved for the last 9 months and 7 days. I wish he was the same again.I guess he's happy now I'm shattering into pieces.I won't stop praying he'll be his normal self again. I MISS HIM SO MUCH.I hope he opens his heart and realize how much it hurts."It's hard to love again when the only way it's been,when the only love you knew JUST WALKED AWAY.I wish I could have a friend to talk to about this.I have no one to vent to at the moment. Oh well, I have to stay positive even if I'm dying inside.I have to prove him I could change, I have to prove my love for him.He's given up on me.One thing he told me he will never do at the start of our relationship. Since we are now best friends, we are restricted to say I love you to each other. So this is where I will say my I love you's first. I don't how I can deal with this in the long run.I won't stop hoping though.

Hey, I love you

I miss everything. I don't get it why you're okay with everything. Manhid ka ata, Can't you see I'm dying? I'm like doing my best to keep a poker face to not lose you. I guess you love someone else now and I know i can't do anything. I just want to hold your hand, kiss you slowly and tell you that I love you. You're my everything. Its hard for me to how you could just walk away like this. I LOVE YOU FOREVER DON'T FORGET THAT. I wont stop hoping

Cupcakes

Ever since you got the cupcake, you changed. oh well :( I won't stop hoping