The second day

This morning I cried my heart out. I experienced insomnia and a massive headache. I couldn't stop crying the whole night. Part of me misses him so much but the other part wants to ruin his life. I just really want him back, if I could give him everything I would. But its all over now. Its just gonna tear me apart when I find out he's in love with someone else. Im going to miss everything and I wont stop hoping.