My Plan...

So I thought of it, why not make daily letters to you? I'm just hoping you'll be able to read the letters. I just want you to know how much I think about you everyday. I won't make a letter for you today though.. Its too late. Don't worry I won't forget to make one every single day.

How's life? I love you 

meeeeeep.

So wala pa rin, wala paring pakialaman. Gosh I miss you. Why is it that you're not talking to me anymore? did i say or do something that made you this? I really really really really really miss you. 

what I learned today

So I guess you're at the party with your girlfriend or something. Its been a long time since we last talked. You'll never know how much I am worrying about you right now. You'll never know how much I miss you. You'll never know how much I love you. It hurts that you would constantly push me away for some reason I don't know. Maybe its my fault, but at least you could've made a way to say hi. I just wanna  move on from this and and forget you. I know that I can't do so. In the back of my head I would ask myself.. What if it happens again? What if a part 2 is coming up? What if I get another chance to make it all right? All of these questions keeps me hoping for that chance to be with you again. This time,we'll end our story right. "With faith you can do anything" this quote from soul surfer inspired me to work hard for what I want. A manifestation of the quote was when I got my target time during my training session earlier this week. Since the splits I was maintaining were too slow, I knew I had to focus and have faith in myself to achieve my target time. We were doing 4x50 fast freestyle swim. The times I got were 39's and 38's. These times are too slow for me. So I told myself, "focus and have a little faith." Soon as the last set came, I got my target time of 36. Going back to the real topic of the blog post.. I told myself: "when I know that I want something so bad, I'll do anything to get it". Meaning, this is the mindset of mine about you B. I won't give up on hoping because I know this is what I want so bad. I am always yours. I'm just keeping my promise B....promise of forever.


I miss you so bad. Take care okay? I love you :*

-T

Old friend.

I really find this giving-each-other-space thing hard. I know i should let him be because he's not mine anymore. But the thing is, I really miss his company. Knowing that he's there makes completes my day. Its been about a week since we last talked. I would just wonder where he is and how he is right now. I told myself that its better that I don't get to see him instead of seeing him but getting hurt. I miss him so much. I hope he knows that. I won't stop hoping that he'll say hi. 

hey there..

So its like almost a week since we last talked. I deleted you because I wanted to see If you'd care to find a way to say hi. But I guess you don't. I really miss you :( (I guess those 4 words are the most said words in my blog) Oh well, I can't teleport to where you are neither can you do in vice versa. Can't we just do it all over again? This time a lot better than before? I really want a second chance to fix everything. I still love you and I'm really worried about how you are right now. You still mean everything to me B.

I just can't hide it.

I really really miss him already. I don't know why he hasn't or doesn't want to talk to me. I fucking miss talking him. But I guess he doesn't care anymore. He doesn't know how much I'm worried of him most especially how much I miss him. Shit tears are pouring down again. I wish I can hug him the I get to before. I just miss him. And its just killing me. HUY B I WISH YOURE OKAY. MAGPARAMDAM KA NAMAN, MISS U.


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The reason for the teardrops

So it's a Friday night. The usual I'm here in my bed crying myself to sleep. I even played teardrops on my guitar in my itouch. I start to remember everything again. Damn my photographic memory. Friday was our favorite day off all. But now it's just a normal crappy day. I really miss him. Yes maybe 3 days can really seem like forever. Atleast I know he's alive (he updated his bbm stat. I wish he is happy right now,even if him not talking to me killing me inside. All I am praying for is for him to be safe always. I pray that God takes care if him. It's not eat for me to move on that easily. So don't judge me for doing so. He is such an awesome guy. He'll make sure that you're the luckiest girl in the world when you're in his arms. I miss being that girl. The tears are falling again. This is how much I love him. To see him happy would mean everything to me. He is the best guy I have met so far. I won't stop hoping a part 2 may come.